it's almost three in the morning and i just came out from the emotional whirlwind filled with anxiety, depression and happiness. was browsing through facebook and caught myself falling flat in love with a person in a recorded video. you see, when you're in a five year relationship, you don't really express how you feel towards your partner freely. it's like once you're through the farting, burping in the face and all things that are too comfortable in front of each other, you tend to take things less lovey dovey or i have to say it straight up.... over rating appreciation.

don't get me wrong, i love my boyfriend completely with my soul but there are days that we bicker so hard that we forget why we are even wearing our sharpest tongue out. it's sort of dysfunctional and we don't talk for days but i swear i always check my phone every 3 minutes! it's just too difficult to not think about the person you have been spending all your time and emotions to. that person is an individual and is singular. that person is only ONE OUT OF THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE. so when we finally reconcile, it's an outburst of joy and happiness party that will drag for days before we get comfortable again. now this, i like the most.

i guess it's in the nature that the both of us will eventually find a way to be together. here's to the years ahead and may we always find shelter in each others arms. all the best to your exams muzap, i have complete faith in you.

love always, your princess.

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we joined forces for a creative project that best utilizes our talents as a team. we wrote a screenplay together, built a cool piece of furniture and stared at the shiniest star in the night. we became each other's muse. under the shiny moon and stars stared down, we sat at the playground's bench watching Juno from my phone with our stomach full of Ramly's specials and shark fins soup.

happy 20th dearest boyf.

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did some reschelduing after a minute or two of sipping diet coke. crimson had been attacking two days ago and i shall not but assist myself into getting a straight biting. got home early enough to have daddy yesterday to send me to toa payoh for kickb. class which started at five. a new girl was introduced and she was sent to be my partner. her name is Gina something something. sweet as she is, but oh man does she fight well. basic was extreamly fun but damn tiring with her. after class Gina's mom insisted to send me over to woodlands, super sweet or what. her car smelt like peppermint and lavendar. thanks mrs Sactulav! got my way to woodlands and meet up with boyf. continued mugging over at his place till mom called reminding me that it was already past midnight. bummer! walked home from admiralty since there wasn't any busses at one thirty.

happy 20th dearest boyf.

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after reading some way beyond lightyears posts, i realise that i already have every opportunity in the world to say this;

muzaffar you're one of a kind and i~ [insert bonjovi's voice] will love you, baby, always.. yeah, i'll be there, forever and a day.. always~~
:D
i need not hide from saying those words from him.. anymore. six months were just super boring and brutal. i'm just glad it's over.


besok sekolah. wah.

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met up with boyf after rehersal from VCH at six at marsiling platform, which was an hour later. it was raining and i had to be excused form pinafulls. we went over to the cathay and watched the leap years. i cried okayy.. though it didn't make sense that they had sex on their second meet up and married on their fourth, it was still a very good movie and their language used were remarkable. how i wish [insert personal wish here]! *sigh.
we then headed back to woodlands and bought milk. we used a SipAhh straw and our milk turned chocolate! yey! we love SipAhh straws! especially boyf who was really excited about australia's brilliant invention. i'm gonna get more of them soon!

this would be the last date of the season we'll be having cause i want to chiong already lah. guai or whatttttt...

p.s: boyf almost different nowadays. thanks Oasis, i'll buy myself your album one day. (:

Ah Mong Ent


i bet you can see my stomach from here


camera shy, hak-tui!

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a gratitude.

they say, cerish every moment you spend with your loved ones.
sometimes, it is not known when bad things are bound happen to someone, so dear and near.
you might not know when he or she might be in for the greatest ride of their life.
and then this quote, will then make you realise how true the words are.

a friend in the morning and a lover at night.
an instant enemy by sight, but a brother in the inside.
he owns a mind of a great leader, redirecting which is wrong and which is correct.
character is what one is; reputation is what one is thought to be by others.
knowing and understanding that, he likes to make a change in whatever records that has been held for the past generations.
he prefers that bending the odds would make things better than the way things are supposed to be,
even if, placing his reputation on the line.
he is best in being patient, and currently, being literally one.
muzap has already been an everyone.

as his paramour, being there for him is nothing but substantial.
i've seen his journey of hard-earned achievements and accomplishments.
it was a bitter start, but throughout the years, he grew more sensible, strong and mature.
he lived his life in music, completing songs with his concertbandmates and not forgetting his ever-rocking friends, he call rockernovas.
unfortunately, every story has an end.

upon the accident he met during the trip over at kotta tinggi, muzap had to stop being whatever he was.
the first few days of recovery was fatal and he could barely be friends with hope.
his sight was murderous, but everyone else held back their tears and gave him hope and faith.
people, in a whole, used to depend on him, but now he has to depend on others.
let's just say, this is life. you won't know when's your turn.
currently ignoring his status, he's recovery is upbeat but sadly,
he suffers form boredom-ismatics, therefore i shall request that you accompany his side at the comfort of his home.
like a child without candy, we need to be there for him.

as someone i had always look up to, it's time i repay him back.
hanging out with him or just go on a date, wasn't enough to repay his deeds as he always play his part as an inamorato.
thank you for being there, giving me support, giving me every littlest things i wanted.
but, i feel that i've have suffered enough to stay still, not having my part spoken and warred with myself, it's time that i won.
and i wish to be there, giving you every supprot you deserve, to answer all your questions and hope for a better recovery.
today is not enough to love you, i need the rest of tomorrows.
and to end this; my love for you isn't a feeling, but a sensation.

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it has been a week since his accident. almost to two. and doctors of SGH couldn't find a slot nor someone to mend him. sigh, government hospitals. fortunately, muzap's eye surgery is already confirmed today, this afternoon, over at Raffles. it is said that part of his eye is being replaced and renewed with. and i have been secretly having thoughts that he'll have magic powers after his surgery. visions of the future, time bending by concentrating with his new right eye, or maybe, pure x-ray visions!
you see, this boy's life is lucky. he'd get to be whoever he wants to be and who he wants to be with. `chaiik! he leads one hella life story. i still remember his days of rebelition in his years throughout primary school and the annoying tantrums he'd shout to the other boys. let's not forget about the irritating sound of his laughter. though he was indeed, theorically a sight to see, i've never talked to him. he was rather focused with his playful, "eew! girls!" group. and his best friends were no one but the boys who'd play soccer under the comfort of his void deck. and **khairuddin [hyrude].
**khairuddin is the one boy who spoke his dreams. i've never imagined to be looking up to both at muzap and hyrude. now, this bestfriends have become majors of my concert band.
by secondary school, things went off differently. though he was this annoying boy everyone else love to annoy, he grew up leaving his habbits behind. he later became one of the approachable types. we never really talked, but i kept thinking that i was the most annoying person in the world for him. and he wished me dead. eventually, as the years passed, i understand on a later note that he frowns to focus. you see, he has miopia, an act of blurness exceeds his eyes.
in his second year of secondary two, all it takes is five days of talking. the rest of his years are filled with commitment and cerishing in everything he has and do.

and that's my muzap. someone i love to hate and love to love.

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celebrated one month to my birthday with boyfriend by sharing memories part 1 at vivocity. i was so excited about my "one more month"birthday that i forgot our monthsary.
happy 11th monthsary boyf!!
yes, uin is still selfish. -_-

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this is for dearest Nysaa myspace.
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the guy who's always at the back of the band
the guy who formally named his band after me
the guy who gets less limelight
the guy who made music a passion
the guy who gives a heartbeat of the band
the guy who'd do fill ins
the guy who managed with many and heavy equipments
the guy with the beats
the guy with sticks
the guy who stole my heart and haven't since gave it back

yeah, you know who you are.
i love you.

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