i've always been afraid of losing anyone.

i'm so afraid that the important people in my life would simply leave with a snap of a finger. my life rotates around people and i've so much blessings to count for. we all know life is fair, how whatever He gives, He'll take. right now, i can say i am happier, i am content. but life doesn't work that way do they? happiness compensate sadness, and sadness compensates happiness. all these while i've been seeking the uneven side of the barrel but after all these digging, i couldn't find any.

then it hit me.

all these while i was so afraid of losing people, i forget that i too might be their loss. i might run away one day, or maybe my calling could be anywhere near. i've been watching and waiting for people to be nice to me, yet i forget to be nice as a person towards, and for them. this is the most important factor that i've missed out. why look for the happiness in others, when i can be their happiness too? why should i be afraid of them leaving, when i can leave too?

and while i am still here, all of you can beat me down like you used to. you can vent your anger at me but i'll still refuse to let go. i have never walked out on anyone, and i am going to keep my record clean. why wait to inherit good vibes, when i can cultivate my own happiness and share it around.

be kind Uin, be kind.