i remember all i wanted to do two years ago was to sit on the sofa in front of my laptop, have all the great songs in my iTunes and waste the day away dehydrating myself, look at insightful pictures, browse through shopping sites and ignore all the surroundings.

here i am, on the sofa doing exactly what i wanted two years ago. i have exactly what i asked for and I'm beginning to feel so afraid. everything is perfect that i am becoming really paranoid. i spend huge amount of money just because i can. bought myself a macbook. i rode a bike and found out I'm  good at it. i give my mother money. i borrow library books that i don't read. i still have a boyfriend who makes me laugh till i cry. i have great friends who share the same goals as me. i am going towards a direction in my job life that i could have never though would come true. my boyfriend graduated from lasalle last week. I'm sitting for a paper in a few weeks time which i am really stoked. I'm almost complete in life, that it is scaring the shit out of me right now.

i guess it's time to make new resolutions.

on another note, someone special is turning 21 this month. can't wait.