the loudest hope that i have is the most silent of all. i need a cup, or better, a mug to complete this mood that i am in. today is a good day for me to appreciate the wonders of life which i have clearly, no doubt neglected. people and money, what do they mean to me? people are just people, and money is just cash. i've spent money just to see someone (note to self: tomorrow is a big day), now should that mean anything to me? i need to have a heart, i need to have insights to what everything should be described. i couldn't sleep last night, it wasn't from a lack of trust. i do not miss, missing someone. i hate the fact that everyone, even for myself to have tears streaming down past every cheek to every tip. this rain, that mother nature speaks of appreciates me thinking of her and may God bless whoever she is. i remembered the exact words i heard from my playlist on my way to my hotel in the empty cold streets of hongkong. how one's words or should i now describe them as lyrics, can make you feel comfort yet having dried tears to form. it is dark and raining right now, i am in the same replica date and state. i need a good movie date, be it my beautiful beyond beautiful girls or the one whom i just texted.

i am currently footwear crazy and one finds that irritating. i've spent more than $200 on them. i am in the current mood for anything ham and cheese.

today is dinner night out to somewhere i think expensive and i really have no clue what to wear. the dress that i wore for prom night in 2008 have not been touched since the night itself.
happy 20th anniversary and more mom and daddy.