i wish to shout out of this weak body, to grab hold of something and make this pain go away. but all i have is the strength to breathe and frown. yes, try to imagine the energy i have left. this month's crimson is really bad and my swings are worse. like all boys, nazrul, you will not understand what i felt just now, i guess you are normal. but probably boys are all aliens. i wonder how jason can sound so forgiving and happy at every post he types. maybe it's a sign that i should probably be a little lot like him? bee sting the bumblebee baby. i finally had the courage to talk to daddy today about some exams that i want to take for experience sake but of course, my words will always be interupted by the other party's own opinions. i had to thank my fingers for pressing the play button on my playlist while the chatter went on. it's 5:07am right now and i think i'll be draging this for a week. i seriously need my pills.

must buy before 2009: a good and nice 2009 planner.